My Life

This week has been a very hard one for me mentally and emotionally. To make a long story very short and without complaining, our finances are very tight and as it is this moment, we only have enough to cover our bills, groceries and gas. I only have three gifts already purchased and three stocking stuffers. My struggle has been in trusting that God knows our need and will be faithful to provide a little more Christmas for our children. I know He does, He can can and He will...it's hard sometimes when you see what's on paper and don't know what may be coming, when it's coming, or how it's coming.

I say all that to get to this. I've also been struggling with how I should be praying. Not just about this situation but everything I've been praying for lately. My husband, his job, the new job opportunity we are still waiting to hear about, our finances, etc. and etc. On the way home from dropping Kev off at work I was praying, trying to keep myself oriented to the Truth instead of freaking out about the above issues, and was feeling conflicted again because I want to be praying the way I need to be.

Then I got behind one of these trucks: Burggraf Restoration

And it hit me.

RESTORATION

That's what and how I need to be praying!

We used to be in a place where we didn't have all these worries. Where we had plenty left over in our budget from one paycheck. When Kev loved his job and was challenged in it. A time when we had the surplus to use to bless other people who were in need. And when Kev was laid off from TV Guide....things changed. Even though God used that almost two years to teach me a lot about trusting Him, we became very much in debt and are now, by the beautiful grace and mercy of God, getting by.

I know God put me behind that truck today for a reason. All of the things I have been praying for need to be redirected. And feeling like my prayers are sometimes hitting His ears as desperation needs to be transformed into prayers that are hitting His ears with confidence. I need to pray for all of those things to be restored. That doesn't mean they'll be exactly the way they were. But my husband will be restored to a job he loves and is one that challenges him. He'll be restored to a job that causes him to grow professionally. He'll be restored to ONE job (not one full time and two part time jobs that just gets us by) that is stable and that compensates him above and beyond what our need is. Our finances will be restored to a place where we don't owe people and where we can use our surplus to bless other people again.

Instead of going down my list of needs when I pray or get worried about something, all I need to do is pray for restoration. Who knew it was really that simple? Apparently I didn't until today.